When I feel down,
I think of you and the happy moments we had. It would be great if I got the chance to relive that year again. When I was that age, nothing could stop me. I would cry then pick myself up the next day. But now, sadly, now I'm not like that anymore. Weaker than the past me. I wish I can be like the old me. That girl who didn't care what life threw at her and took on every challenge that came by with gusto. Here I am typing this because I wish for many things to happen but my wishful thinking remains a fantasy. Every single day I look forward to interesting scenarios, funny dialogues, random acts and happy emotions. There is nothing better than laughing with people who care about you. That is what I have come to learn. Friends who I see everyday, boys who I used to be interested in, classmates with all kinds of actions. But along the way, I've lost my sense of identity. I want to be confident again. I want to feel beautiful inside and out. I want to live a happy life with laughter and fun jokes. I want to achieve my goals. I want to finish my studies and move back home. I want to look forward to tomorrow with hope and expectation without being let down. I want to strike off those to-dos. I want to learn how to play the guitar. I want to have my friends with me on my journey. I want to learn how to hunger for achievement like my classmate. I want to see my family everyday. I want to wake up in my bed and look out the window to see the morning sun. I want to read books I love. I want to write a children's book one day. I want to see the world. I want my parents to see the world because they have worked so hard all their lives. I want my parents to be happy. I want my brother to succeed. I want him to find his way in life with happiness and satisfaction.

Actually, all I want is to be home.

♥ 10:23 PM